throwback thursday

Throwback Thursday: Pa Rum Pum Pum Pum [December 16, 2009]

While running errands today, I got the idea to share content from past blog posts/ my book in occasional Thursday posts. I have a lot of content that was previously published online that I still think is worth reading. I’m not going to share a post every Thursday, and I’m definitely not going to share everything from my book, but I hope you enjoy what I do share.

Note: These posts may be edited slightly from the original. The main content/message has remained the same, but some changes may be made to correct punctuation, spelling, and other grammatical errors and/or improve readability.

For those of you who have been living under a rock, or in a bubble, in in a pineapple under the sea, it’s December. December means many things- colder weather, finals, lots of shopping, and Christmas music. (Now, don’t ask me why in our days of “political correctness” you never hear a single rendition of “Dreidel Dreidel Dreidel” on the radio…)

Earlier today, I was listening to the radio when a classic Christmas song started playing. Ok, so it was the MercyMe version of “The Little Drummer Boy.” (Not exactly the classic song).

Would you believe that song touched me today? I’ve heard that song countless times before, but today, it touched me.

I have no gift to bring
pa rum pum pum pum
that’s fit to give a King

I couldn’t sleep last night. Just as I was starting to drift off to sleep, woke up to a single thought:

What if doing something great is the easiest of my dreams to reach?

It doesn’t seem right. How can my doing something great with my talent be the most reachable of my dreams? It’s that dream that is etched so deeply into my heart that I can’t shake it… it’s a dream that’s at the very core of who I am. It’s so much more than writing a song that makes it on the radio or being published in a magazine. It’s more than writing a book…more than having people read this blog. Even I don’t know how to describe this.

Yet, it might be the most reachable of my dreams?

Shall I play for You
pa rum pum pum pum
on my drum?

I want to do something great with my writing. So great that it’s beyond the scope of my imagination. I want these words to reach beyond where I thought they ever could.

It never occurred to me that I might reach that dream and never know it. I might do something incredible with my talent and not even see it. Pouring out my heart into something and never seeing anything coming out of it? Talk about discouraging!

“Love the Lord your God with ALL your heart, and with ALL your mind, and with ALL your strength….”

Isn’t that what it’s about? Isn’t that the main reason God gave me this talent?

I played my drum for Him
pa rum pum pum pum
I played my best for Him

The greatest thing I can ever do with my writing is just write for God. Those nights I pour my heart in my journal… those poems that are a cry out to Him. They mean far more than any blog entries… anything I will ever get published. It’s not about the writing at all. It’s about the One who gave me this talent and passion.

If I look to Him, I can’t fail.

Sure, I may never reach my dreams. Does it matter, though? After all, doesn’t God already have plans for my life? He can do so much with me if I just give this talent to Him. If my sole purpose in writing is to worship God, He will use me.

So, I guess that’s what I needed to work on doing. Pouring my heart out on paper. Not so I can try to reach any of my dreams for my writing; not so I can try and do something great.

Just to worship

Only to worship

Then, He smiled at me…

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