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[In]Flexibility

I am not a very flexible person.

Now, don’t get me wrong. I will bend over backward for the sake of others. I have a tough time telling anyone “no” when I’m asked to do something. In fact, I have such a problem with this that I will ignore phone calls from work on my off-hours because if I don’t answer, I don’t actually have to say “no” when I’m asked to come in on my day off.

I like routine. I hate it when something messes it up. Initially, I planned to say that changes in my schedule and/or routine make me “nervous.” That would be a lie. It completely freaks me out.

Lately, my morning routine has involved spending more than two hours at the gym. I start with my LIIFT4 workout of the day, hop on the treadmill for an hour, and then take a shower. This routine has been okay. I get to relax and take time, and by 8am, my step goal has been crushed.

However, it’s only been “fine” because I had the time. I went from working primarily in the afternoons to not working at all. When you don’t have to be at work before noon, it’s easy to take the time to spend two hours in the gym. It’s also easy to let the morning routine drag on and take much longer than it should (Parkinson’s Law, anyone?)

I’m working a job that requires me to be at work before 8:30 some days.

This change in my schedule caused me to panic slightly. First, it meant that I needed to figure out a breakfast I could eat on the go. No more plates of eggs, fruit, breakfast meats, and bread. Second, it put a damper on my morning routine at the gym. There are days when I don’t make it to the gym before 6am. Sometimes, it’s 100% my own fault for not preparing the night before or moving slowly. Other times, I’m unable to get into the bathroom before 5:30 because someone else is in there.

When I found out about the schedule change, my initial thought was to go to the extreme: 4am wake-up.

The problem with a 4am wake-up time is that I probably don’t get enough sleep as it is. Losing an extra hour isn’t going to benefit me in any way (especially not at the gym).

Do I need to be a bit more on top of things when it comes to not putzing around in the morning? Absolutely. Still, that only helps so much. It certainly doesn’t do me any good when my gym bag is packed, my workout clothes are laid out, and I’m up and out of bed by 5:10 only to realize that I have to wait 20 minutes before I can go to the bathroom and weigh myself.

I need to remember that my goal is not to spend two hours at the gym. My goal is to complete the LIIFT4 workouts scheduled for the week, go on four 30-minute walks, and get 8,000 daily and 70,000 weekly steps. The fact that I’ve been able to go above and beyond that goal was a blessing, but it was never my goal.

So, maybe the answer isn’t to wake up early. Perhaps the solution is to simplify my routine a bit. On days that I go into work later, sure, I can take advantage of the extra time to lift and walk on the treadmill. On days I have to be at work earlier, maybe, I’m only going to lift (unless it’s Wednesday when I’ll walk). Perhaps there will be days when I do both, but I’m only getting 30 minutes on that treadmill.

The idea of spending less time at the gym makes me nervous. I’ve been getting 80,000-90,000+ steps a week lately. I’m not sure what my step counts will look like if I’m not spending as much time on the treadmill in the morning. I feel like I may have (subconsciously) been trying to race my calories during my reverse diet. I’ve been raising that bar with my activity, hoping that, maybe, I can go just a few more weeks adding to my calorie target. So, while I’ve finally reached the point where my calories are staying put (I think), the idea of having to dial back on my activity worries me (especially since my weight is a tad higher than I’d like it to be at the moment).

Still, it may be what I need to do. Besides, it may open me up to the possibility of having more time in my mornings to get back to reading and journaling.

It doesn’t make this process any easier. I’m still mentally freaking out about everything. I’m just hoping that this will get easier once I get through the initial adjustment period. Perhaps, I’ll learn how to be a bit more flexible one day.

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Back to my Happy Place

I’m going back to the WW Green plan on Monday.

Well, ok, that’s only half-true. I’m going to be following the same plan, but I’m not rejoining WW. The drama surrounding the company is undoubtedly a factor, but it’s not the only reason. I still don’t want to deal with weigh-ins and the pressure of Lifetime that led me to leave almost 6 months ago. Plus, I’m already an iTrackBites pro member. I can’t justify paying $500 a year for a plan that I’m currently getting for $18—[Note: I joined iTrackBites during a promotional period and got locked into a discounted rate].

I’m still trying to figure out how I feel about this decision. It seems to me that this year, a lot of people are moving away from counting points. While I, personally, never struggled with under-eating on SmartPoints, I know many people eat too few calories. (But that’s something I’ll rant about another day). Even I jumped on the calorie counting bandwagon. I started with double-tracking both calories and Points (both SmartPoints and PointsPlus). Then, I transitioned to counting calories.

The truth is, calorie counting isn’t right for me. I know losing weight (or fat, rather) is a matter of calories in and calories out. It’s a mental thing. When I count calories, I get obsessive. I have a scale that weighs and measures down to a tenth of a gram. I don’t track “one scoop” of protein powder. I will track 31.3 grams.

I know it’s my own fault. I’m the one doing it. It’s why I burn out on calorie counting.

Last fall and winter, I was killing it. Lately, however, I’ve been struggling with consistency. I keep self-sabotaging- all while desperately wanting to be back in the same place I was a year ago.

I left SmartPoints because I started putting too much pressure on the number on the scale. My weight loss slowed down, and I got distracted. I started experimenting, and my consistency in staying on plan suffered.

Lately, however, I stopped caring about the number on the scale. I haven’t weighed myself in months. I imagine the number on the scale has gone up; I feel like it’s gone up. That doesn’t really matter, though. I’m not frustrated with the scale. I’m frustrated because I feel like, no matter what I do, I struggle to stay consistent. I stay on track for a few days to a few weeks. Then, I self-sabotage. I eat like a jerk. I stop tracking.

And the entire time, I yell at myself: “Do it anyway! You don’t eat like a jerk! Stop it!”

Yet, it’s not enough. I keep ignoring myself. I don’t know why.

So, I decided to really look at things. What was going on the last time I truly felt in control? What was I doing the last time I was consistent for an extended period?

SmartPoints. I wasn’t looking at calories. I was just following the WW Green Plan, and I absolutely loved it. I wasn’t perfect by any means (though, what is perfect?) I still had days where I made less than ideal choices. However, I always got right back on track immediately after. An indulgent dessert with lunch was followed by a simple dinner of protein and vegetables. I rarely spiraled out of control as I do now.

So, I’m stepping away from the meticulous stress of calorie counting. I’m going back to not weighing and measuring every morsel of food I eat. I’m keeping secondary metrics turned off for now. I won’t be tracking my zero point foods with precision. I don’t see a need to weigh my protein powder when I can have just under a scoop and a half for 1sp. I probably won’t measure my coffee creamer anymore. (A quarter cup of NutPods is 1 point, and I know I don’t use that much). 

I’m still taking a break from the number on the scale. However, I am going back to weigh-ins on Monday. I cashed in the money I earned using the WayBetter App and ordered a Shapa scale. I want to see whether or not the scale is going up or down. Right now, my goal is to see the number go down, but not gaining is my top priority. In a few months, I’ll reassess. Maybe I’ll slowly increase my points and reverse back into maintenance. Perhaps I’ll go back to counting calories again.

For now, I’m just going back to my happy place.

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I Quit WW

Well, I think my title says it all.

Shortest blog post ever?

In all seriousness, this isn’t just about me stepping away from SmartPoints. I talked about that decision before. This is about me stepping away from WW officially.

January 2021 (a date we are all desperately clinging to right now!) will be my 12th anniversary of joining WW. Now, I wasn’t always a consistent, paying member of WW. I’ve left and come back and left again over and over and over.

This feels a little different. Perhaps because when I rejoined in December 2018, I actually stuck to it until only a couple weeks ago. I didn’t always follow the current plan (or any plan) during that time. Still, I was consistent in weighing in (save for the Whole 35), attending meetings (“workshops”), and trying to be a part of the community (kinda) for over 550 days before I canceled my membership.

However, I think this feels different because I canceled for a different reason than I have in the past.

In the past, I’ve canceled because of life changes (like starting college on campus or a new job), finances, or simply because it felt like a waste to pay when I wasn’t losing weight because I wasn’t following the plan or because I was dealing with medication side-effects.

This time, I canceled to let go of a dream I’ve had for over 11 years.

Lifetime Membership.

On WW, if you hit your goal weight (within your healthy BMI range unless you have a doctor’s note for a higher weight goal) and maintain it for 6 weeks (within 2 pounds), you can achieve something called “Lifetime” status. As long as you weigh in no more than 2 pounds over your goal weight, you get free WW. 

Even with switching to PointsPlus, I was still holding onto this idea of getting Lifetime. I love the WW meetings. There’s a reason I went to 2-3 a week pre-COVID and 6 a week when WW went virtual. Getting Lifetime and going for free just makes financial sense- especially after all the time and money I’ve invested into WW over the years.

However, a few weeks ago, I was doing some serious reflection over how COVID has changed things for me and my weight loss journey, and I realized that I really love weighing in at home. The idea of switching things up and going from weighing in at home in the same outfit I wore to weigh in at WW every single week to weighing in wearing shoes and a mask just overwhelmed me. Now, if WW would allow me to continue with home weigh-ins indefinitely, things would be different, but it doesn’t seem like that’s going to be the case (based on a conversation I had with 24/7 chat about reaching Lifetime from home).

It made me realize that I don’t want to be a slave to the scale. Right now, if I have a rough week food-wise, I don’t care if I have a gain on the scale. PMS, special events, a change in a workout routine, illness, family issues. It doesn’t phase me. It’s just weight.

But what if my monthly weigh in to determine whether or not I have to pay happens to fall during the worst part of PMS? What about the fact that lifetime members need to weigh in at the beginning of the month? That makes the first weigh-in of the new year a challenge for everyone, but I’m also dealing with a late-June Birthday, which means it could impact my July weigh-in. Right now, seeing a gain on the scale at the beginning of July doesn’t phase me. It’s pretty normal for me.

But I’m pretty sure I’d feel differently if I weighed in for the purpose of Lifetime.

So, I’ve decided to step away from WW and give myself a break from having that pressure on me to hit goal weight by a certain time. Will I ever return to WW? Honestly, I’m not sure. There is a part of me that’s considering coming back when I’m a little closer to goal so I can get Lifetime and enjoy free meetings, but seeing as part of why I left was the realization that I don’t want the scale to hold so much power over me, this might be it.

In the meantime, I’m switching things up a little. I took a week off of the scale. In fact, tomorrow will be the second Sunday I’ve skipped weighing in since March 17, 2019 (last week was the first). Since I don’t have the pressure to stay consistent with Sunday weigh-ins and scheduling weigh-in day based on the best WW meeting for me, I’ve decided to change things up and start something new on a Monday instead of Sunday.

I think my main focus for the next four weeks is going to be tracking. I’ve been pretty inconsistent at that for a while and that definitely needs to change. I decided to sign up for a few “track bets” over the next few weeks as an added “push.” I was going to commit to 4 solid weeks of tracking anyway, but if I can get some extra cash for doing it, I might as well.

I also have a virtual race I’m working on. I still have 25.9 miles to go (out of 31.9), but that shouldn’t take too long. Currently, my “rule” is that I count any outdoor walk that’s at least 1 mile. If I walk to the store and back, that counts (but the shopping or going from store to store in the shopping center does not). Eventually, I may start biking some races (but I need a bike first). I haven’t quite set a goal for when I want to complete this race, but I think I can get this one done in 2 weeks and then knock out another one by the end of this 4-week experiment. I could possibly finish my current race in about a week, but we’re looking at excessive temperatures over the next few days, so I’m not sure I’ll be up for super long walks this week. I’ve already earned two race medals since starting these virtual races in June and there are a few more I’m hoping to collect from this one site alone.

Overall, I think my theme for the next month is going to be “consistency.” Consistency with tracking, drinking my water, getting in my steps, etc. I don’t have a specific workout plan set yet (working on that one) and I’m still tweaking some goals for the diet aspect of things, but at the end of the day, my main focus is just being consistent with what I know I need to do to reach my goals.

I am also doing a little self-reflection and experimenting with some things over the next 4 weeks related to my diet/health goals, but I’m not quite ready to share those details with anyone. Chances are, I’ll decide whether or not to say anything near the end of the 4 weeks.

Tomorrow, I have some grocery shopping to do to get myself prepped for Monday. In the spirit of giving myself a fresh start, I’m charging up my Fitbit (after not wearing it for a week) and creating a brand new Fitbit account. My weight history from my fancy new Bluetooth scale is being wiped clean. Sometimes, I think I just need a fresh start, so that’s what I’m doing.

So, here’s to the end of my time with WW and the start of my month of consistency.

Let’s see how this goes.

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Rebellion against WW

I used to hate the WW message boards. While they were a decent place to get information about WW before Facebook groups and Connect were a thing, the people who spent their time posting on the forums weren’t always the nicest. Some were downright bullies (and apparently, telling someone they need a meds adjustment and that’s why they cut themselves did not violate any rules).

There was one unspoken rule in the forums. Thou shalt not question Weight Watchers. The mere suggestion that the plan was imperfect really riled people up. WW Rebels were not welcome. At times, it seemed almost cult-like.

So, I was very pleased when I came across a video on YouTube a couple years ago from someone who flat out said that she did not follow the plan perfectly as written. It was someone who regularly posted WW content who did not bow down to the memory of the great Jean Nidetch. I was hooked. I came back to that video over and over and eventually, I became friends with the creator of that video, Brianna (also known as Diva and the Divine).

The thing I really loved about Brianna’s video was that she didn’t break the rules arbitrarily. It wasn’t like she just didn’t want to track something, so she didn’t. Her reasons all made sense.

Anyway, I thought it would be kind of fun to jump off Brianna’s original video idea here and write about the WW rules that I break- especially since I’ve been rebelling a bit more.

Of course, you should check out both of her WW Rebel videos on her YouTube Channel. Her original one can be found here and her latest one is here. (And while you’re on YouTube, you should check out my new friend, MiRanda’s, own WW Rebel, video here because her “stealing” from Brianna is what inspired me to do the same.)

So, after that painfully long introduction, here are a few of the rules I break on WW.

Blended Fruit

I am #TeamNoCountBlendedFruit all the way. I know. I started off with thing everyone rebels against. I rebelled against counting blended fruit back in 2010 when PointsPlus came out and 0 point fruit became a thing. Back then, all fruits and vegetables in any recipe were supposed to be counted. That’s how the recipe builder worked. Even the infamous Garden Vegetable Soup had a PointsPlus value despite consisting of nothing but 0 point vegetables.

This made absolutely zero sense to me. I understood the logic behind it. It’s easier to overeat carrot cake than raw carrots. I also understood what they’re saying about how it’s easier to drink more fruit than you’d consume if you were eating it whole.

However, back in 2010, the WW Android app was pretty bad. It took up too much phone space and it often just didn’t work. Many people in my meetings didn’t have Etools. If they wanted to track a food, they looked it up in a book they bought in the meeting room or used a little handheld calculator. No Etools meant no Recipe Builder. We were taught to calculate the PointsPlus value of a recipe by adding the total points for the ingredients and dividing that number by the number of servings. So, if you had a smoothie made with half a banana, 3/4 cup of blueberries, a handful of spinach, and a cup of almond milk, you’d add 0+0+0+1 and get a 1 point smoothie. There was no list of PointsPlus values to be used in recipes where produce was supposed to count.

This meant that the PointsPlus values for a recipe made using the recipe builder and one made by someone paper tracking could look significantly different. I didn’t accept that. So, I didn’t count the fruit and veggies in any of my recipes- including smoothies. That hasn’t changed in nearly a decade.

Besides, nobody has been able to explain to me why unsweetened applesauce is a 0 point food.

WW

Ok. I’m actually rebelling against WW in general right now. I know. It’s crazy.

Now, I am still an active, paying member of WW. I attend multiple workshops a week in New Jersey, Connecticut, and Maryland. However, despite having the choice of three different plans to follow, I don’t actually follow any of them.

I love SmartPoints. I really do. The Green Plan was my jam. The problem is, I stopped losing weight on it a few months ago. I talked about it a bit more in a recent blog post, but in short, with the way I was eating and the 0 point foods being what they were, I was eating my maintenance calories most days.

So, while I am still attending WW workshops and working towards lifetime status, I am following the old PointsPlus plan (aka Carb Concious) on the iTrackBites app. I’m about halfway through my second week on the plan and I’m LOVING it. I feel absolutely fantastic. I’ve finally been eating in a way that will allow me to lose weight, but I’m also enjoying a newfound freedom and flexibility in my eating. On Saturday, I had a salad from Chipotle with double the barbacoa, guacamole, and a Confetti Bundtlet from Nothing Bundt Cakes. On SmartPoints, I’d be working my entire day around that dessert.

Plus, I can’t be mad at a plan that got me out of the weight decade I was stuck in for MONTHS.

Collagen (and Multivitamins and Medicine)

Back on SmartPoints, I got into the habit of adding 2 scoops of Vital Proteins Collagen Peptides to my water every morning. It’s basically flavorless if you don’t think about it too much. I didn’t think much of it. It was a way to add a few extra grams of protein into my morning and collagen is supposed to have other health benefits as well, right?

Besides, the unflavored version is 0 SmartPoints.

Unfortunately, it clocks in at 2 PointsPlus for the 2 scoop serving.

My collagen was one of the things that was making me question my decision to move forward and try PointsPlus again, so I decided to not track it. After all, I don’t track the gummy vitamins I take every morning. How is this any different? It’s a supplement. I don’t count cough drops or other medicine. I probably wouldn’t count it if I had to take a spoonful of local honey to help with allergies.

I’ll track my food. I don’t count points for medicine.

Coconut Water

This one has the same logic behind it that the previous one does.

I actually hate coconut water. I think it’s disgusting. However, I hate summer more. I don’t do well with the heat and my dad doesn’t believe in air conditioning, so I often get dehydrated during the summer. After all, I spend all night just sweating and it’s very difficult for me to re-hydrate while I’m continually sweating.

So, I’ve decided to allow myself to have coconut water, as-needed when I’m feeling especially run down by the heat. I don’t drink sports drinks like gatorade, so opting for coconut water just seemed like the best choice. I’m not likely to overdo it because I only drink it out of desperation (and it certainly won’t replace my gallon of pure water I drink every day). Why punish myself by counting points for something I’m basically using as medicine?

Cooking Fats

This is fairly new change. I have always been one to measure and count all of the fats used for cooking. After all, fat is the most calorically dense macro nutrient. Over time, I learned to cook all my food dry. I’d toss my vegetables in the oven or air fryer to roast with absolutely nothing on them. I would toss a teaspoon of olive oil on the vegetables after roasting so I’d get the healthy fats in, but the results were always subpar.

Then, a couple months ago, I hit a wall. I’m pretty sure it was plain old WW burnout. I spent some time eating like a complete jerk, but I knew I couldn’t continue down that path for long, so I decided to try something new. I decided to see what would happen if I didn’t count points for cooking fats. After all, back when I was on my Whole30, cooking fat didn’t even count as a fat in a meal because some of it cooked off.

Now, at the time, I was still on SmartPoints, so butter and coconut oil technically are twice as many SmartPoints as olive oil. However, calorie-wise, they’re about the same, so I decided to treat them exactly the same. That has continued into my switch to PointsPlus.

My rule is that I do not count points for fats added to foods before cooking. Now, if I toss vegetables into olive oil before roasting or add a little butter on top of my salmon before sticking under the broiler, I will count the calories (just to keep me in check), but I’ll mark it as a 0 point food. A lot of that fat ends up staying in the pan anyway. [This is likely how I will approach marinades if I cook something using one, though I may also only count a certain amount of the marinade for calorie purposes]. I do not count anything for the fat I use to grease my cast-iron skillets before cooking . Sometimes, it’s a drizzle of olive oil directly into the pan. Other times, I’ll take a stick of butter and rub it on a hot pan. As long as there’s not a visible pool of fat, it doesn’t get counted.

Now, fats that I eat directly- like olive oil in my salad dressing, butter on my toast, or even olive oil in my waffle batter- do get counted appropriately since I know that the fat there isn’t being lost in the cooking process.

Disclaimer

I spent a good 3 months this year not losing weight. If you’re looking at the list of rules I’m breaking and you know this about me, then your conclusion may be that this is probably why I’m not losing weight. That’s a valid assumption. However, when my weight loss stalled, I wasn’t breaking any rules except for the rule about blended fruit (and it’s not like I drink smoothies every day; I only drink them a couple times a week- mostly out of necessity since I don’t get a lunch break at work).

Some of these rules, I’ve only broken for a couple of weeks. Others (like the coconut water rule), I haven’t actually broken yet. However, while I may not be counting Points for these things, I am still logging in their calories. I know that counting a little butter in my pan or blueberries in my smoothie as 0 points isn’t hurting my progress because I’m still primarily eating in a calorie deficit (now that I’ve switched to PointsPlus; the couple rules I broke before my switch were not enough to make a difference).

Since iTrackBites makes tracking a secondary metric so easy, I will continue to keep an eye on my calories- just to make sure that the rules I break aren’t causing an issue. As time goes on, I may start breaking more rules, or I may realize that I’ve been breaking too many. Whatever happens, I am keeping myself in check and it seems to be working so far. We’ll see what happens in the future.

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Sticking to what Works… Until it Doesn’t

I love the WW Green Plan. I lost a bit of weight on it back when it was the new SmartPoints plan a few years back before I put the weight back on when I went on medication to manage my mental health. When I started back on it in September, I spent time modifying the WW app to allow myself to go back to following that plan.

I lost about 30 pounds on SmartPoints.

Last Sunday, I weighed in at 0.2 pounds above what I weighed on March 1. I have been in this same weight decade since December. My only saving grace is that even with some large gains, I haven’t gone up into the higher weight decade.

Now, I haven’t been perfect, but I never have been (and never will be). Still, I’ve had more good days than bad days and that’s always been enough. Lately, however, it hasn’t been enough.

This week, I’ve been doing an experiment inspired by Brianna’s own calorie and point comparison experiment. I decided to switch to tracking on iTrackBites instead of the WW app to take advantage of the secondary metrics. Clearly, something has not been working for me and I need to figure out what it is. I figured the first step would be to look at how many calories I’m eating.

Now, this was a rough week to start an experiment between PMS hunger and eating like a jerk, but the on plan days have been very insightful.

I am still following the Wendie Plan. I do not count points for fruits, vegetables, or the oil I drizzle on my veggies before roasting or air frying (but if I make a salad dressing or something like waffles, I will count points for the oil in that). I am, however, counting calories for those things.

On a “good” day, I’ve been averaging about 1,831 calories per day. According to my Fitbit, my 7 day average calorie burn is about 2,160 calories. [This doesn’t include my “high” point day which would obviously skew my calorie consumption]. It’s no wonder I’m not losing weight.

I’ve looked at the numbers. Obviously, the fruit, veggies, and oil that I don’t count as points still have calories. However, even after subtracting the calories from those foods, I’m still hitting my calorie goal. I know people who, even with 0 point foods, struggle to hit their calorie goals without blowing through their points. I don’t have that problem at all.

If I spend my entire points allowance on chicken breast, that’s over 2,000 calories. On a bundt cake? 640. That’s an average of 75 calories per point vs 21. The problem is, I eat a lot more chicken than I do cake- which is what WW wants me to do.

On PointsPlus, there’s a 10 calorie per point difference between chicken breast and cake.

Most of what I eat on a regular basis is either the same points between SmartPoints and PointsPlus or is fewer points on SmartPoints. I don’t eat a lot of sugary foods. Between daily and weekly points, I have 14 points more on SmartPoints than I do on PointsPlus. If most of my foods are the same on both plans, it means I’m easily overeating on SmartPoints. Take my work lunch for example? The protein powder I use is a point more on PointsPlus than on SmartPoints, but the 1sp fiber powder is 0pp. This means that my smoothie is going to be 9 points on either plan. However, I’m looking at 9 out of 30 points on Green and 9 out of 26 on PointsPlus (which I still think is the “yellow” plan- even if Brianna says it should be the glitter plan). That’s nearly 35% of my daily target vs 30%. Things like that can add up FAST.

One thing that confused me about when SmartPoints first came out was that, even 40+ pounds above my goal weight, I hit my minimum daily and weekly target. It just didn’t make sense. At the point where I hit my minimum of 30 dailies and 35 weeklies on SmartPoints, I was still at about 29 PointsPlus. Right now, I’m at about 26pp. Being at my minimum while I’m around 12 pounds from hitting a healthy weight range makes perfect sense. At 30+ pounds above? Not so much.

So, I’m stepping away from SmartPoints- at least for the time being. Tomorrow, I’m going to switch my tracker on iTrackBites to start tracking PointsPlus values on the Carb Concious plan. I’ll still be double tracking calories- just to keep myself in check and see what other tweaks I need to start making. Other than switching plans, nothing else will be changing. The foods I eat will probably be the same- with a few tweaks here and there. I still plan on following the Wendie Plan guidelines for PointsPlus.

I’m hoping that making a few small tweaks here and there with my diet, in addition to starting a mini fitness challenge for my Birthday (which I’ll announce at some point) in addition to finishing out Liift 4 will be enough to get the scale moving in the right direction.

Now, I will be adding one more food to my list of foods I will NOT be counting as points. Every morning, I add two scoops of unflavored collagen peptides to my water. On SmartPoints, that comes out to 0 points. On PointsPlus, however, that’s 2 points. I still plan on counting the calories for it, but since I’m taking the collagen as a supplement and not as food, I’m going to treat it like I do my vitamins or any medications and not count any points. If I find that I need to start cutting back on some things, I’ll look into counting it in the future, but for now, I’m going to see how not counting it works for me.

I’ve always struggled with “the grass is always greener” syndrome when it comes to diets. No matter how well a plan is working for me, I always look at others and go “I wonder if I should switch.” It’s taken me a long time to reach the point where I’m no longer wanting to make major changes every few weeks. I’ve been staying in my own lane. It’s been working for me, so why change?

Except, it’s clearly not working anymore, so I need to make a change.

I’m nervous. It’s been a while since I’ve been on PointsPlus. I’m used to having 30 points a day that I aim to divide evenly between 3 meals. I’m not used to dividing 26 points up; 26 points don’t even divide up evenly between the meals. I’ve never had anything below 30 points on PointsPlus, so that in itself is going to be a challenge- on top of relearning the points values for foods. I’m going to have to learn how to eat with these changes: figuring out how to divide my points and learning how to enjoy the fact that I don’t have to schedule my entire week around one dessert without using it as an excuse to eat like a jerk.

It’s going to take some time to figure things out, but the best way for me to figure that out is just to get started.

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A Day of Eating on the Wendie Plan (36 Point Day)

I was struggling to come up with an idea for what to write today, so I thought I would try sharing what I ate today.

As you should know, I’m currently following the Wendie Plan. Since today is Thursday, it means today is a 36 point day. I am on the WW Green Plan (also known as “Sugar Smart” on iTrackBites).

Now, you should know that I track some foods a little differently than the “rules.” For example, I am 100% on Team No Count Blended Fruit. I’ve also stopped tracking the drizzles of oil I use for cooking. The biggest thing that I do, however, is that I recalculate the calories for most of the food I eat based on the macro nutrients on the nutritional label. This means that there may be a slight discrepancy between what points I share and what the WW app says based on the nutritional information on the package.

Breakfast (11):

After my morning walk, I threw together a pretty simple 11 point grilled cheese sandwich:

-2 slices of Ezekiel 4:9 Bread (4)
-2 slices of Good & Gather [Target] Brand Munster Cheese (5)
-Good & Gather Sliced Turkey Breast (1)
-Trader Joe’s Garlic Aioli Mustard Sauce (1)
-Arugula (0)

I paired the sandwich (which I cooked on my grill pan) with red, orange, and yellow bell pepper slices (0); sugar snap peas (0), and cherries (0). [I also took my multivitamins- which I don’t count, and I had two scoops of Vital Proteins Unflavored Collagen Protein in my water for 0sp.]

Lunch (10):

This was a fairly quick and easy meal since I really just reheated my dinner leftovers. I made a simple stir-fry last night:

-Chicken Breast (2)
-Asparagus (0)
-Mushrooms (0)
-Red Onion (0)
-Sesame Oil (2)
-Coconut Aminos (1)
-Primal Kitchen No Soy Teriyaki Sauce (1)

I served this over cauliflower rice with some soy sauce (0) and topped the mixture with Trader Joe’s Chicken and Cilantro Mini Wontons (4).

Dinner (9):

Lunch kept me full a lot longer than I was expecting, so dinner ended up being later than I wanted it to be, but that’s ok.

-Grilled Pork Chop (5)
-Trader Joe’s BBQ Rub with Coffee and Garlic (1)
-Air Fried Potatoes seasoned with Trader Joe’s Onion Salt (3)
-Roasted Broccoli (0)
-Roasted Beets (0)
-Roasted Carrots (0)

The beets and carrots were seasoned with salt, pepper, and thyme. So simple, but so delicious.

Dessert (6):

I think my favorite days are the days when I hit my daily target (30) exactly with my meals and use my weeklies for dessert. It doesn’t always happen. Sometimes I eat lower point meals and have more points left over for dessert. Other times, I want a little something extra and don’t have any points for dessert. I’ve learned to be flexible.

I took my top two dessert options to Instagram for a vote, and the Trader Joe’s Joe- Joe’s Thins beat out the Clio bar for my last 6 points. I paired these with some more cherries (0).

And there you have it! It wasn’t an exciting day of eating, but most days aren’t. In fact, this was actually a fairly typical day for me. Some shortcut foods, some foods made from scratch, a ton of veggies.

Not including 0 point fruits and veggies or the bits of oil used when cooking, my totals come out to around 1,447 calories and 126 grams of protein for today. I don’t count calories or macros, but I do like to check in occasionally just to see where I’m at without looking at 0 point foods. Without the 6 weeklies spent on dessert, my totals sit at about 1,398 calories.

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When Everything Goes Right, but Turns Out Wrong

I meant to write this update yesterday, but after an incident waiting in line to get into Target that involved a call to the police and a 2 hour wait before I was allowed into the store (for my safety), blogging wasn’t exactly a priority.

Week 1 on the Wendie Plan was great. I’ve been really embracing some leaner options lately- especially grilled chicken breast. That, combined with days where I need to eat 5, 6, or even 7 points over my 30 daily points gave me freedom I haven’t experienced in months. I’ve eaten snack mix, popcorn, peanut butter puffs, brownies, and cake during the past week and it’s been wonderful.

The fact that I ended up gaining this week? Less wonderful.

Now, I’m not going to jump to the conclusion that the Wendie Plan didn’t work for me because I had a gain this week. In fact, my first thought was to continue with the same schedule and give it another week.

One week of an experiment isn’t enough to say if it’s going to work or not. After all, I’ve had great losses eating all of my weekly points (and and then some). I’ve also had losses after eating at all-you-can-eat buffets the day before weigh-in.

I started a new workout program last week. I absolutely suck at it. Yet, aside from Friday’s workout, I absolutely loved it. (What can I say? I hate leg days with a burning passion.) In fact, my biggest complaint was that you can’t find dumbbells anywhere and I really need to get heavier weights for some of the moves. There is a very real possibility I will go through another 8 week round when I’m done with this one- especially if I can get new dumbbells within the next 6 weeks.

I stayed within my points, drank a gallon of water, took my vitamins, hit my step goal every day, and worked out 6 days a week (not including going for walks outside). It was a fantastic week.

Yet, I still gained.

And that’s ok.

When I look back at this week, there’s not much I’d go back and change. Sure, there was the one night I basically skipped dinner because family drama prevented me from getting into the kitchen. Yet, even that wasn’t too bad. Instead of skipping dinner entirely or using it as an excuse to eat like a jerk, I grabbed an apple and a Healthy Eating All the Time and Go Bar for the remaining 7sp I had in the day. I still consider that to be a win.

I lost over 5 pounds last week (true, I gained those 5 pounds the week before that).Perhaps my body is just regulating itself.

Maybe my gain was water weight because I’ve recently changed my workout routine and I’m lifting weights 4 times a week.

Perhaps it was just hormones and where I was in my cycle yesterday.

Maybe the Wendie Plan on SmartPoints isn’t right for me- at least not in this season of my life.

Or maybe it’s just one of those weeks where the scale just decides to be a jerk.

It happens. Sometimes, we can’t explain why the scale is behaving the way it does. We have gains when the numbers all point towards a loss. Other times, we’re surprised that we weren’t punished for poor choices. It goes both ways.

I would love to see the scale start to move in the right direction. I’ve been stuck fighting these same few pounds for months. It’s frustrating, and (to be perfectly honest) this is the first time I’ve really dealt with my weight stalling without a clear explanation (usually involving me eating like a jerk). Of course, that could be because this is the longest I’ve ever actually stuck to WW consistently.

At the same time, weight loss was just a desired outcome for the plans I put into place. I was a realistic hope for my experiment, but it wasn’t the only one. I also wanted to find the spark I had when I started back on SmartPoints in September. I wanted to find freedom to enjoy the foods I like so that I don’t go through these binge and restrict cycles. I wanted to learn to love exercise again.

I am making progress towards all of those goals. Those are the ones that really matter at the end of the day. Those are the ones that are going to help me establish lifelong habits and routines so I eventually do hit my goal weight- and stay there.

Maybe the scale will be a little nicer this week. In the meantime, I’m going to keep doing what I’ve been doing- with one minor adjustment. I’m not officially going to get into intermittent fasting (my work schedule doesn’t really allow for that), but I am working on finishing my food for the day a little earlier. I’m aiming for at least a 12 hour fasting window (which I missed yesterday and will miss again tomorrow), but my main goal is to try to avoid the 9pm dinners. Do I think it’s a miracle cure? No, but it certainly can’t hurt.

Now to start my bedroom light wind-down and curl up in bed with the next chapter of my book before I settle down for the night. 5AM comes way too early- especially when you don’t want to get up.