I am not a very flexible person.
Now, don’t get me wrong. I will bend over backward for the sake of others. I have a tough time telling anyone “no” when I’m asked to do something. In fact, I have such a problem with this that I will ignore phone calls from work on my off-hours because if I don’t answer, I don’t actually have to say “no” when I’m asked to come in on my day off.
I like routine. I hate it when something messes it up. Initially, I planned to say that changes in my schedule and/or routine make me “nervous.” That would be a lie. It completely freaks me out.
Lately, my morning routine has involved spending more than two hours at the gym. I start with my LIIFT4 workout of the day, hop on the treadmill for an hour, and then take a shower. This routine has been okay. I get to relax and take time, and by 8am, my step goal has been crushed.
However, it’s only been “fine” because I had the time. I went from working primarily in the afternoons to not working at all. When you don’t have to be at work before noon, it’s easy to take the time to spend two hours in the gym. It’s also easy to let the morning routine drag on and take much longer than it should (Parkinson’s Law, anyone?)
I’m working a job that requires me to be at work before 8:30 some days.
This change in my schedule caused me to panic slightly. First, it meant that I needed to figure out a breakfast I could eat on the go. No more plates of eggs, fruit, breakfast meats, and bread. Second, it put a damper on my morning routine at the gym. There are days when I don’t make it to the gym before 6am. Sometimes, it’s 100% my own fault for not preparing the night before or moving slowly. Other times, I’m unable to get into the bathroom before 5:30 because someone else is in there.
When I found out about the schedule change, my initial thought was to go to the extreme: 4am wake-up.
The problem with a 4am wake-up time is that I probably don’t get enough sleep as it is. Losing an extra hour isn’t going to benefit me in any way (especially not at the gym).
Do I need to be a bit more on top of things when it comes to not putzing around in the morning? Absolutely. Still, that only helps so much. It certainly doesn’t do me any good when my gym bag is packed, my workout clothes are laid out, and I’m up and out of bed by 5:10 only to realize that I have to wait 20 minutes before I can go to the bathroom and weigh myself.
I need to remember that my goal is not to spend two hours at the gym. My goal is to complete the LIIFT4 workouts scheduled for the week, go on four 30-minute walks, and get 8,000 daily and 70,000 weekly steps. The fact that I’ve been able to go above and beyond that goal was a blessing, but it was never my goal.
So, maybe the answer isn’t to wake up early. Perhaps the solution is to simplify my routine a bit. On days that I go into work later, sure, I can take advantage of the extra time to lift and walk on the treadmill. On days I have to be at work earlier, maybe, I’m only going to lift (unless it’s Wednesday when I’ll walk). Perhaps there will be days when I do both, but I’m only getting 30 minutes on that treadmill.
The idea of spending less time at the gym makes me nervous. I’ve been getting 80,000-90,000+ steps a week lately. I’m not sure what my step counts will look like if I’m not spending as much time on the treadmill in the morning. I feel like I may have (subconsciously) been trying to race my calories during my reverse diet. I’ve been raising that bar with my activity, hoping that, maybe, I can go just a few more weeks adding to my calorie target. So, while I’ve finally reached the point where my calories are staying put (I think), the idea of having to dial back on my activity worries me (especially since my weight is a tad higher than I’d like it to be at the moment).
Still, it may be what I need to do. Besides, it may open me up to the possibility of having more time in my mornings to get back to reading and journaling.
It doesn’t make this process any easier. I’m still mentally freaking out about everything. I’m just hoping that this will get easier once I get through the initial adjustment period. Perhaps, I’ll learn how to be a bit more flexible one day.